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Terence McKenna - Nobody is smarter than you are

               Now this video I found really interesting, I honestly feel the same way. Through the experience I've gone through, I believe nothing is right unless it has been understood not by others but by me. I feel like this is where people have a hard time coming to terms with understanding. I don't know what you've been through, what you've learned. How am I to fully accept every word you are telling me as truth? Now I am not saying we're all liars here, but I am saying is that it isn't easy making someone understand something you've never experienced. You can give a person insight of things you have experienced or learned and they will take into account everything you are saying, however the words that come out of your mouth will be going through all of the experiences and learning processors of the person you are talking to's brain. When I give you words like Love, Respect, Honor, Sin, Religion, Peace, War, we wouldn't all have the same definition for those words. We learn from the raw data we are given in life. With that I believe some of us connect better with others because we've gone through similar understandings, but we all have our own view and definition going on throughout our lives. It's really interesting. Be open minded. Take into account the different languages our minds all have. We all are seeing things differently. And the best way to help someone understand your language is to be an example. 

You Choice, Your Future.

BAM!

That moment you've been waiting for is RIGHT HERE!

Look around. 

Step back from the worldly things going on and LOOK. 

This is it.

Do you feel like you are waiting for the perfect moment?

The perfect timing that society says is just around the corner.

. . . It is just a grasp away . . . 

Can you not see it? 

It's never been a grasp away!

Here it is in the palm of your hands!!!

Too often we get caught up in the world of 

Money, Work, Materialistic, Power...

&

Too often we forget who we really are

and what we stand for.

Our moment is now.

You'll never be ready if you're waiting 

for the perfect time to come.

Take your opportunity.

Because it is here.

Especially at the age after high school.

Don't wait.

You are going to be living off the

choices you make now. 

Be Wise.

Be Willing.

Be Ready. 

Book of Life

Well once again I have taken my sweet time to create another post.

It wasn't until a friend of mine asked 

the address of my blog that I realized I still had one.

So here I am and here is my new post...

I've come to realize the similarities between life and a book.

(It's funny how the more you do a certain thing the more

you learn what life lessons it brings forth.) 

Going through life you have your friends and family.

You meet new people.

You experience both good and bad things.

It happens everyday of our lives.

Life is our story. 

And the story is incredible.

However sometimes we hold back.

We have a hard time moving on.

This happens to the best of us. 

But sooner or later we need to realize this isn't the end.

Even after death I feel our story will go on.

Now like I have said people come and people go.

We all have amazing friends. 

And through life you realize everyone of them came at the right times.

But as we progress through our stories 

we realize connections with some people seem to fade.

But it's okay.

They've served their purpose. 

Sometimes its hard to focus on where we are now if we are stuck in the past.

Chapters end, and we must carry on.

There is so much ahead of us.

Everything that goes on is a learning experience.

With every end is a new beginning.

So don't hold yourself back.

There is so much your life holds. 

Just because one thing ends doesn't mean there is nothing left.

With every new chapter is surprise.

With its good and bad, there is a lesson inside.

The Here, The Now, The Present...

So I haven't posted lately...

Haha I guess its because either I have been going through some hard times

OR

I might just be enjoying life to much to really remember to post.

...

Well its both :) But both being a good thing...ish.

Lately with where I am in the world, 

With what i'm doing.

I feel like I have been distant with my closest friends.

What also bothers me is that after telling my closest friend

my deepest secret that I wanted out,

He has been distant...

I mean we hang out but its like we're not really there.

We're only there for one person, and its the other person 

whose with us. 

But I feel stupid complaining about it on a blog.

Haha now that I feel the pressure of hearing people read my blog

 I feel like i'm probably boring you with my problems.

Lately I've been "learning" something amazing.

"You need to be selfish in order to be selfless"

I have been having issues relying to much on others.

I have been focusing on others.

With both their problems and their views on things.

Things being both life and me.

I started letting other people create who I am.

I started letting my thoughts think for them too.

And those thoughts changed me.

I was becoming a person I didn't want to be.

Thinking things I didn't want to think.

But the point i'm getting to is that we need to focus on us.

We need to figure out what it is that WE want.

No longer will I let my thoughts over power me.

No longer will I let others define me.

I am going with my heart and soul and letting that be me.

I'm going to be with people who lift my spirits.

(Although lately the ones who used to no longer are...)

But I have started being with people who let me be myself.

I mean i'm thinking some of you might be reading this 

wondering what went wrong. And i'm here to tell you

nothing did.

Your to far away or we just don't have time for each other.

I have realized I can't keep leaning on people.

I can't keep trying to fix myself by expecting you to when you can't.

Your all still my friends. We will still make memories.

But for now I need to do whats best for me.

And that's by being around things that make me feel better.

Man I switched topics.

and it probably sounded confusing.

Because I was trying to hint out alot of things,

without actually telling.

What matters is that I understand.

And writing it down made me gain a better understanding.

Look i'm not a great writer.

But i sure know how to help myself realize the things that I don't get.

Love you all.

Haha I have respect for those who actually read this.

It probably was rather boring today :P 

Next time will be better maybe yeah?

Knowledge of Life

After getting to know me really know me

You start to realize I am a really open person.

I start sharing things, personal things

With all of you and I'm about to tell you why.

Most people would guess

Because your close to them, you want that listening ear.

True. But not my main reason.

Maybe because you just need to vent out those feelings.

More then likely that isn't true for me.

So what is it?

The reason why I open up so much 

is because I'm telling you these things that I dont understand.

Each and everyone of us all have our 

separate windows that we all look through.

You look through and its how you see life.

Its what you perceive and how you feel.

However not one window is the same.

They may have similar views but they are not the same.

We all look through and determine that this is how life is,

You can see it, you know it.

Most times that's why we argue. 

Because you see it one way while another see's it different.

I learned this from a TED talk that really is AMAZING! 

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/en/kathryn_schulz_on_being_wrong.html

That is the link, if your interested. I Highly Recommend.

Anyways but skipping to the point.

I am open because I want you to share with me your view.

I want to understand this problem in different ways.

Because looking at it in just our perspective can't always help.

I YEARN for the knowledge of others perspectives.

I love being able to see things in different views! 

So next time you argue,

The next time you fight.

Think about it,

Because your not always right. 

The Eternal Friend.

This post is dedicated to all my closest friends!

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”j
-Bob Marley

Coming To Terms With The Person Inside.

It's funny how lessons come across in our lives. Some subtle & some will smack you in the face. But no matter what, it will keep trying to present the answer to you until it finally clicks. These lessons we learn have patience. Because deep down these lessons know that you will learn from them. I myself just got smacked. But the great thing about it is that it felt good after figuring out what it is the lesson was trying to get across-ed. I'm about to open up to the world and be myself because accepting yourself for who you are and what you do is one of the best things you'll ever learn. 

I'm Asian, 

I am a attention seeker (but it doesn't have to be a bad thing), 

I am a sucker for romance,

I was never a big chocolate fan,

My Favorite color is blue,

I love to cuddle whether it be with boy/girl/ or even dog,

I love to talk and try to be charismatic,

I love to inspire people,

I feel the need to get everyone to love me,

I also hate being hated (something I should work on here soon),

I love to read/hear inspirational blogs, posts, people, posts,
I am LDS, and will always be strong towards the church,

I know who I am, and I know I have friends who support me.

But the real thing I was trying to get across-ed is

I AM GAY. 

No I am not any different because of this label.

and am not flamboyant either. I am Cody. 

I'm slowly placing myself in this world and it feels better then ever.

I was always sick of waiting for someone to take the plate.

I went through "HELL" trying to accept myself. 

Waiting for someone who was going through my same problems 

to stand up and just say, I know what your going through.

And to tell me...

"IT GETS BETTER!" 

Sadly that person never came in my life.

But I wont let some kid hurt themselves nor go through hell waiting.

So here I am. Publicly coming out for the first time on Blogger. 

I'm shaking as if I am having a seizure.

But the great thing about that is...

I only do that when I finally accept things that I was never comfortable with. 

Friends. Family. & Anyone else reading this blog.

Thank you.