I always seem to tell myself I am ready to start being me, to bring out every aspect, views, and my personal uniqueness. I keep reading inspiring & motivating blogs telling me not to let any opinion down, to not feel judged no matter what anyone says. I really feel that I can do anything, I can be the person I want to be, yet something is holding me back. What it is I dont know.
Maybe deep down it isn't just the right moment, Which very well could be the case. I am one to be a head of myself. However at the same time, I HATE having to hold in a part of me. I want everything out, I want everyone to know who I am, not meaning to be famous but for everyone to know this is who I am and I am happy with the person I am.
I have plenty of friends who love me for me and do know me from the shallowest of pools to the deepest of depths. Most know me much better then myself. I love being around people where I can just be... ME. Everything just feels right. Like where I am in life is where i'm supposed to be. However not being able to fully express myself leaves me feel like I am missing something, like there is a hole that needs to be filled.
Now I dont know what to do, or where in life I am at, but I would like to feel caught up. To feel like everything seems to be in the right place. Now I know I can't live a perfect life and in order to have everything in place would be ridiculous. Every person has a hole in their life needing to be filled. But right now that seems to be my main focus for right now. This is a hole that needs filling. But why can't I bring myself to filling it...?
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