Sunday, June 15, 2014

The Transition: Unrestricted World Traveler to Struggling Mundane Workaholic

 I've recently started living life out on my own, before I was living with my mom and sister. I've been trying to learn how to manage my life more responsibly, however it has been a rather difficult task for me. I've always been an independent guy, more or less, and I thought I could take on the world... But it has been quite the struggle taking on so much responsibility. I didn't really put myself out to a great start with my car loans and the trip out to Europe, not that I regret it. ;) 

The pressure of living up to the 20 year old expectations have been daunting. To prevent the stigma society has brought on for the young adults, we have been provided with the following options. (based on Utah views)
  1. Prepare for a LDS mission, an LDS mission is highly favored within the Mormon religion. 
  2. Attend College (preferably a University) with grad school in hindsight. 
  3. Join within the Armed Forces, to keep our country strong and proud. 
Now there is plenty more rare occurrences such as becoming a millionaire with some breakthrough business idea, or you could be a born prodigy. Sadly some of us find ourselves not following any of the chosen paths, and stuck within a mundane routine. That is where I am.

My life has become routine.
 I mean ever since my backpacking trip through Europe, my life has become rather dreary. But the routine is what bothers me the most. Quickly trying to make up for the time I spent saving up for my travels, which honestly was more time than I needed. 

Quickly getting myself into a 9-5 job saving up money for a life I'm not even sure I want to live. I think that's what makes those expectations so daunting. Not knowing the future is scary, but not knowing if it's a future you want to aim for is even worse. We're young and in our prime, and yes this is the most important time of our lives, because it's now that we begin define ourselves.
The fear has begun.

 It's never easy realizing that the pressure begins to weigh on you. Growing up we never realized how easy we had it. Anxiety begins to kick in and fear strikes with it's sharp sword. It doesn't help when you begin to realize how much responsibility you are faced with such as friendships ending, bills, homework, rent, groceries, health, the list could keep going but I'm sure you get the point.

Rocky Balboa couldn't have said it any better,
 "Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life..."
Life is tough, and we find ourselves stuck in deep ruts. Not always living up to who you wanted to be. However, life happens. We miss the curve balls thrown in our direction. Failing once, Failing twice, Failing thrice (it's a word google it!). But let me give the floor to Rocky to finish what should be said,
"...But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!"
Look nobody has a manual to how to live life the right way. The choices placed by society are mere suggestion. So keep your head up, lift your feet off the ground, and lastly... 

...remember where you've been!

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

The Overly Attached Roomie

Where have the days gone. 
One minute I was in Europe with just a backpack to my name,
and now I'm back to where I started. 
It's crazy having such an immense experience behind me.

The next step in my life I've taken was moving out of the house.
My friend, Priamo, and I moved out to Provo, and
we share a house with 4 other room mates just outside of BYU boundaries.

The place is great! 
Problem is, our room has no privacy, our room mates constantly walk through it. 
Due to the laundry room being inside it, (The place is under construction)
The best we could do is put up a king sized sheet to separate the open walls. 

However this isn't the only problem.
Most room mates I've rarely seen doing the laundry, we need a mom.
The main problem is one of our room mates treats our bedroom like a family room.
He constantly invites himself in, stands in front of the TV,
and takes part with whatever we are doing.
Now I wouldn't mind if I wanted to hang, or if we invited him in.
But no, everyday, walking in and making himself comfortable.
And the hints we give, which are beyond subtle, haven't had much of an affect.
We've lost our heads and we will soon have to come out and tell him, we're uncomfortable. 


To be fair this place has been great.
Privacy has been the only struggle. 
(Nope cleaning is a major problem too -_-)

On a more positive note, we've been  bulking up!
We've invested in a gym membership and are actively putting it to good use(:
It's been three weeks and we are slowly seeing results. 
The motivation has been the hardest work-out.
We went from every day to becoming too sore for the next.
We've learned to take it slow, but are working on raising the bar.
No goal left unfinished(:

(More like Go Hard or Go Home.. to our clingy roommate)

Haha that picture killed me.
Sadly that's how much Priamo and I lift at the gym.
Plus the extrinsic motivation was very much needed.

Till next ti... who am I kidding see you the next blue moon!
It could still come next week!
So stay positive :D