Tuesday, November 29, 2011

The Here, The Now, The Present...

So I haven't posted lately...
Haha I guess its because either I have been going through some hard times
I might just be enjoying life to much to really remember to post.
Well its both :) But both being a good thing...ish.

Lately with where I am in the world, 
With what i'm doing.
I feel like I have been distant with my closest friends.
What also bothers me is that after telling my closest friend
my deepest secret that I wanted out,
He has been distant...
I mean we hang out but its like we're not really there.
We're only there for one person, and its the other person 
whose with us. 
But I feel stupid complaining about it on a blog.
Haha now that I feel the pressure of hearing people read my blog
 I feel like i'm probably boring you with my problems.

Lately I've been "learning" something amazing.
"You need to be selfish in order to be selfless"
I have been having issues relying to much on others.
I have been focusing on others.
With both their problems and their views on things.
Things being both life and me.
I started letting other people create who I am.
I started letting my thoughts think for them too.
And those thoughts changed me.
I was becoming a person I didn't want to be.
Thinking things I didn't want to think.
But the point i'm getting to is that we need to focus on us.
We need to figure out what it is that WE want.
No longer will I let my thoughts over power me.
No longer will I let others define me.
I am going with my heart and soul and letting that be me.
I'm going to be with people who lift my spirits.
(Although lately the ones who used to no longer are...)
But I have started being with people who let me be myself.
I mean i'm thinking some of you might be reading this 
wondering what went wrong. And i'm here to tell you
nothing did.
Your to far away or we just don't have time for each other.
I have realized I can't keep leaning on people.
I can't keep trying to fix myself by expecting you to when you can't.
Your all still my friends. We will still make memories.
But for now I need to do whats best for me.
And that's by being around things that make me feel better.

Man I switched topics.
and it probably sounded confusing.
Because I was trying to hint out alot of things,
without actually telling.
What matters is that I understand.
And writing it down made me gain a better understanding.
Look i'm not a great writer.
But i sure know how to help myself realize the things that I don't get.
Love you all.
Haha I have respect for those who actually read this.
It probably was rather boring today :P 
Next time will be better maybe yeah?

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Knowledge of Life

After getting to know me really know me
You start to realize I am a really open person.
I start sharing things, personal things
With all of you and I'm about to tell you why.

Most people would guess
Because your close to them, you want that listening ear.
True. But not my main reason.
Maybe because you just need to vent out those feelings.
More then likely that isn't true for me.
So what is it?

The reason why I open up so much 
is because I'm telling you these things that I dont understand.
Each and everyone of us all have our 
separate windows that we all look through.
You look through and its how you see life.
Its what you perceive and how you feel.
However not one window is the same.
They may have similar views but they are not the same.

We all look through and determine that this is how life is,
You can see it, you know it.
Most times that's why we argue. 
Because you see it one way while another see's it different.
I learned this from a TED talk that really is AMAZING! 
That is the link, if your interested. I Highly Recommend.

Anyways but skipping to the point.
I am open because I want you to share with me your view.
I want to understand this problem in different ways.
Because looking at it in just our perspective can't always help.
I YEARN for the knowledge of others perspectives.
I love being able to see things in different views! 

So next time you argue,
The next time you fight.
Think about it,
Because your not always right. 

Sunday, November 6, 2011

The Eternal Friend.

This post is dedicated to all my closest friends!

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”j
-Bob Marley

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Coming To Terms With The Person Inside.

It's funny how lessons come across in our lives. Some subtle & some will smack you in the face. But no matter what, it will keep trying to present the answer to you until it finally clicks. These lessons we learn have patience. Because deep down these lessons know that you will learn from them. I myself just got smacked. But the great thing about it is that it felt good after figuring out what it is the lesson was trying to get across-ed. I'm about to open up to the world and be myself because accepting yourself for who you are and what you do is one of the best things you'll ever learn. 

I'm Asian, 
I am a attention seeker (but it doesn't have to be a bad thing), 
I am a sucker for romance,
I was never a big chocolate fan,
My Favorite color is blue,
I love to cuddle whether it be with boy/girl/ or even dog,
I love to talk and try to be charismatic,
I love to inspire people,
I feel the need to get everyone to love me,
I also hate being hated (something I should work on here soon),
I love to read/hear inspirational blogs, posts, people, posts,
I am LDS, and will always be strong towards the church,
I know who I am, and I know I have friends who support me.
But the real thing I was trying to get across-ed is

No I am not any different because of this label.
and am not flamboyant either. I am Cody. 
I'm slowly placing myself in this world and it feels better then ever.
I was always sick of waiting for someone to take the plate.
I went through "HELL" trying to accept myself. 
Waiting for someone who was going through my same problems 
to stand up and just say, I know what your going through.
And to tell me...
Sadly that person never came in my life.
But I wont let some kid hurt themselves nor go through hell waiting.
So here I am. Publicly coming out for the first time on Blogger. 
I'm shaking as if I am having a seizure.
But the great thing about that is...
I only do that when I finally accept things that I was never comfortable with. 

Friends. Family. & Anyone else reading this blog.
Thank you.   

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

No Longer in Reaching Distance...

Maybe it's just me... But it goes like this,
Going across the country with certain people build these strong bonds.
and once their we all feel connected because together
we are learning both about ourselves and others all around the world.
and not only that but they are the only close people
you can lean on when the going gets rough. 
But now that time is over. We are back to our original lifestyle. 
Those bonds we created in the other country still held strong.
However with time I was only able to keep a strong bond with one
of the sixteen people that all went to India.
Yes I still keep in touch with the sixteen, 
and some I often see every week but its not the same.
I almost feel like even though we are all here and there with each other
We still wont have that same connection like we 
had when we were there... in India... 
I feel like its the people that I went with that keeps India and us together.
Like the experience will fade off because each of us
brings back an important memory we had there.
But not till now did I notice.
I feel like a family that is falling apart. 
and even tho I try to bring us back together, 
or even just parts of us back together,
it wont happen.
I can't bare losing such friends.
Only because they are the only things I have
left of India for me to remember.
I never want to forget.
Can we go back to our old times.
I liked them.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

The First Step... Agian.

The beginning. Ugh I dread coming to this page, having to type. 
You know I always have wanted a blog, something for me to just write anything down, anything I want.
Yet every time I get to this spot I have high expectations of me.
I want to write something Motivating and Inspirational. 
I want to help myself learn and help others as well. 
But yet once I hit this page the "Create New Post" page, I lose all confidence in myself.
So I decided, NO MORE! I don't care if I don't like it. 
I actually came close to deleting everything before this post.
I thought I sounded like a person who can't work a blog. 
But NO! I will keep writing no matter how silly I sound. I can only get better right? 

The Motivation
So what brought me to writing this right now? 
Well I can tell you it has nothing to do with what I just said at the beginning. 
It goes like this...
Well before I get to ahead of myself, 
I really just wanted to write out my feelings to see if it'd help.
Something about letting out of my thoughts onto paper (or this post I guess)
helps me better understand them and myself.
But anyways, I seem to lose control of my actions at times.
I guess i'm still in need of learning about the consequences in the end. 
I do a lot of things without thinking. 
Now I can't imagine how I could ever get someone angry
because that has never been my intention from the start.
But at times I seem to bother people because I let myself go to far.
So I keep pondering the question "Well, What do I do now?" 
I feel awkward when I have done someone wrong, or angered them in any way.
I actually try to keep away from that person as far as possible.
So I wrote this down hoping i'd get an answer of what I should do.
Because I feel if I confront the person, that I've done wrong, that I will only make it worse.
and if I ignore it for to long I will lose respect. 

I only hope that one day I read this and laugh, 
Laugh at how silly I was for thinking about this. 
Hopefully I can put my embarrassing thoughts of this blog to rest. 
That I will continue until I get better.
I hope I read this sometime in the future and know that I will
write a lot better then I have for this post. 
The End.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

The Gaps in Life

I always seem to tell myself I am ready to start being me, to bring out every aspect, views, and my personal uniqueness. I keep reading inspiring & motivating blogs telling me not to let any opinion down, to not feel judged no matter what anyone says. I really feel that I can do anything, I can be the person I want to be, yet something is holding me back. What it is I dont know. 

Maybe deep down it isn't just the right moment, Which very well could be the case. I am one to be a head of myself. However at the same time, I HATE having to hold in a part of me. I want everything out, I want everyone to know who I am, not meaning to be famous but for everyone to know this is who I am and I am happy with the person I am. 

I have plenty of friends who love me for me and do know me from the shallowest of pools to the deepest of depths. Most know me much better then myself. I love being around people where I can just be... ME. Everything just feels right. Like where I am in life is where i'm supposed to be. However not being able to fully express myself leaves me feel like I am missing something, like there is a hole that needs to be filled. 

Now I dont know what to do, or where in life I am at, but I would like to feel caught up. To feel like everything seems to be in the right place. Now I know I can't live a perfect life and in order to have everything in place would be ridiculous. Every person has a hole in their life needing to be filled. But right now that seems to be my main focus for right now. This is a hole that needs filling. But why can't I bring myself to filling it...?

Friday, August 12, 2011

In-The-Moment Perspective

            Alright so I was hoping to be able to do this outside in the midnight summer air but sadly I couldn’t get the dang brightness down on this computer because it was way to bright and also because I just realized even if I could get the brightness down to zero bugs would still come towards the light and I would probably have a lot of mosquito bites all around my body. So that was a fail. However just before I had started writing this Journal Entry I went out to the still night. I was sitting in my backyard next to my dog just looking up at the sky seeing each and every individual star light up just a tiny fraction of the sky. I thought of each star as a person some is shining brighter then others but each one having purpose. You know thinking about it, if there were only one star in the sky wouldn’t it be overwhelmed with darkness? I feel like that if there were only one person on this earth. Wouldn’t that person feel overwhelmed by the world? I know this is a super cheesy thought to share for today but sometimes I’m like that. I get caught in the moment. Which I’m sure I have lost now. Anyways I realized I am one who sees from multiple perspectives. When I see a person homeless on the streets I try to understand how did he get there? Where is his family? Is he making a valiant effort trying to pick himself up or is he happy with the lifestyle he has now? Growing up I’m sure a lot of people heard the term “Don’t judge a book by its cover”. However I feel some of society keeps there thoughts to themselves, some judging the cover, others getting an idea of what this book has to Intel. Everyone has a story and for me I’d like to be able to understand and hear what their story is. Now I may not be an avid reader when it comes to books, but I love hearing the story people have to share. In life perspective is key to unity. And with the type of person I am being united is where I’d like to be. So I have decided from now on. I will go out and find my passion, share it, and ask others what theirs is and learn a little from them. Because we’re not here to always figure things out on our own, but to learn from others perspective.

P.S. I am not a writer at all and I’m sure this was just a “in the moment” entry I had. So I’m sorry for the ridiculous words ha-ha. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2011


Alright so I am about to share with you my PERSONAL ENTRIES
that I have kept writing since the start of June 2011. 
So bare with me. This was before I thought I had an audience. 
I tweaked it a bit. I didn't delete anything. Just added on.              

Remember being 3 years old and seeing the world for the first time. Shouldn’t we still see the world that way? I’m not saying dumb down and fill your diaper, but really look at the world. Now I mean LOOK! Be aware of things around you. Try to imagine what things could do from a different perspective. Like instead of using toilet paper for bathroom try using it for Toilet Papering people’s houses! (NOT RECOMMENDED!) That way if anyone reads this I can’t get sued ;) ha-ha. Not only that but try to imagine a tool that could help you in your daily life. Like I would like a water bottle that never runs out of COLD fresh clean water! That would be amazing! People would be more hydrated and healthier! Imagination is a fun tool so use it often!

Blogging a new beginning

You know blogging is one of the best inventions. 
I was just blog surfing, going through each and every blog and it truly is incredible.
I saw a lot of blogs about families and ourselves, and it seems like blogging is the escape for a lot of people.
When you blog you have the ability to be yourself and nothing more. 
You share your most prized memories, thoughts, and actions. 
Now going through I was able to see that, to others they might get bored of hearing about someones life,
but for me it was exciting! Its not the same reading about someones memories, others might not understand but really all that matters is that you do! Blogging is like a journal. So I think I am going to post my personal thoughts from some previous entries I have worked on... So here we go! 

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

My Days ARE OVER!!!

Alright so I got bored of the 30 day challenge.
I fail.
But only because I want to blog about my interesting days that are here!
Not previous ones. I only talk about previous days if I have nothing better to talk about!
Anyways... Oh I would like to talk about books! Lately I have been addicted reading books!
Just any book will do, but I have a guilty pleasure.
I'm not sure how guilty it is if I dont feel so guilty reading it though...
I have just finished reading a book called...
This book was an awesome book! It was kind of long, and depressing, but I still loved it!
This book was about a little boy whose entire world is a small room.
His mother lives with him and you find out why they are there.
This book was full of perspective. I just have mixed feelings about this book.
Would I recommend it.. Maybe.. It lays 50/50 for me. Like It was a great book however it just lingers...

Now I am reading two more books! This next one I started last week..

This I would reccomend to anyone out there!
I am not one who is big in the whole sci-fi books, but this book is a real page turner!
I know it looks nerdy and old but really this book is a classic.
This book I am only in the beginning but just reading it you'll know it will get better.
When I read this book it is almost like the hunger games but more futuristic (technological).
But yes HIGHLY reccomended.

Alright my guilty pleasure...
I am someone who loves self-help books.
I am not depressed, nor upset from any traumatic expirence,
but instead these books just really help you learn to be open.
To see oppertunities that lie in front of you and to take them!
These books just help you become a happy/successful person in life.
So here is the next book I am reading...

I dont even know what to say about this book!
It is just amazing. It really uplifts your mood, and helps you
gain happiness skills! Haha yeah...
I think these books are really helpful if you want to be someone
happy in life and successful. I think everyone
needs a happy boost every once in a while, everything you want to
do in life you should do. If you think you deserve to be the richest person
in the world then by golly go do it! Because honestly anything you
think you are meant to be, or want to do, you were made for.
So be happy and go accomplish EVERY GOAL you have out there!
That basically is a crappy summary of the book.
The guy who writes this really makes his words uplift you.
He is magic. Haha he knows what to say.
I dont... But thats not my goal. So I will just reccomend reading
one of these books someday okay!


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

DAY 11!

Alright i'm guilty. Guilty of not blogging for weeks. Four weeks, Four Days, 1 Hour, and 4 Mins to be exact. Yes you did want to know that because there were alot of fours in there! Anyways I've kinda started another blog. BUT! It isn't online. Ha... Ha... Its more of a journal I've started doing, but instead of writing about my day I write about my thoughts. Such as movies that have inspired me. Along with Questions of the Day Which for the days that I do blog I will ask one. Anyways lets cut to the chase!

My Siblings!
Alright pictures are in construction!

Casey is my one and only brother. He is 23 years old till August 14. He is Married to Mindy Ahn and they have two children! They are the cutest nieces I have ever had! Their names are Tinsley and Riley, Riley is the oldest. Casey is in the Air Force and lives in Washington. He is a great older brother and I love talking to him. I miss him so much and can't wait to visit him this summer!

Courtney is my one and only sister! She is 13 years old turning 14 on November 13. She is amazing at soccer and I fully support her although I dont go to her soccer games... I know horrible brother I am. She is in Middle School and i'm pretty sure her head can't get any bigger. Although i'm pretty sure she has tons of friends in school and is probably popular but still. I just give her a hard time. She is a great sister and I love her so much :) 

Friday, May 20, 2011

Day 10

What I wore today

3 Bracelets (2 from india then a team taylor for a kid with cancer)
2 Necklaces (One from a kid from India and money from india)
Bright Blue Sweater
Boxer Briefs
Baggy Pants
Black Socks
and my pair of Etnies

Kinda weird but yeah thats what I wore :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Day 9

My Beliefs
So yeah i'm way behind on this challenge
so it comes and goes as it pleases from now on ;)

I believe myself.
I think I have the power to do
anything I want in this world and
I will go through anything to make sure it happens

I believe in the Gospel.
I believe in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

I believe in others.
Anyone.. Everyone is capable to do
anything they want.

I believe in the Secret!
If you dont know what it is
look it up. Its literally called "The Secret"
There is also a sequal called "The Power"
which is also amazing.

I believe that I will go far in life
no matter what complications get in the way.

and that concludes my beliefs for today...

Monday, May 9, 2011

Day 8

A Moment...
Doesn't get better then this

Day 7

My Best Friend!

So I couldn't find a better picture then this :P
Jordan... She IS AMAZING!

We were just good friends before the trip to India but
after that trip we became BEST BUDS!
She is someone that knows me more then anybody else
I became so close with her.
We are just super tight buds! Nothing more Nothing less.
We always have good times and me and her and a few other ymad buds
are planning on going right back to india here soon so here I come!

Day 6

Okay this counts for last saturday. Because I need to catch up!

I woke up my friend slept over.
I just opened the blinds and took a shower (My Friend was still asleep :P)
Then Still my friend was not awake.
So I went upstairs and said hello to my family.
Then they left to my sisters soccer game.
So I made breakfast to wake my friend up.
I had started and went down stairs into the guest room and said...
He jumped. But woke up and came up for some.
He is a good friend so I didn't care that I woke him up.
We ate breakfast then went downstairs and watched Super Troopers!
Then played some good ol' Mario on the super nintendo.
Then we went to the University Mall.
We chilled there for a while then went to my friend Jordans house.
Jordan got in the car and asked us to go back to the mall,
 so she can get her mom a spa card for mothers day.
So we went back. It wasn't bad since she lived by it.
Then we chilled there and played the ditching game. I got ditched by Jordan and Cobabe.
Then I found my Friend Mckell and we found Jordan and Cobabe.
Then we went to the Chocolate and got Cazookies :D they were yummy!
Then others from YMAD came to the Chocolate and we then headed back to Jordans.
We made a bonfire and just talked about how much we missed India.
Had some great conversations. Stayed there till 11:45PM
Then everyone went home. Cobabe took me home and I left my iPod in his car :(
So we made plans to hang out agian this week.
We are going to his MORP on Friday. It's Guys choice? Weird...
Then I walked in my home and went STRAIGHT TO BED.

Probably boring to read, but if you were there
 you woulda known it was a blast!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Day 5

My definition of love is this...

Love is being grateful for what you have.
Gratitude is love.
It is everything you are thankful for.
Everything that makes you happy 
and show gratitude for is love.

Day 4

What I ate today was really
supposed to be for yesterday but
i'm just going to do today cuz I forgot
what I ate yesterday :P

1. Bread Roll (Breakfast)

2. Extra Spearmint Gum Piece

3. Apple Jacks

Thats all haha its only 11:34 AM okay!
I'm not anorexic :P

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Day 3

My Parents
Yeah I couldnt find one of just me and my parents so
here they are :D

I love them so much they are amazing parents.
They are so loving and they are funny... sometimes ;)

I dont know what else to say other then they are awesome!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Day 2

My First Love...
My Childhood.

Playing tag in the summer in a giant park.
Having the imagination of playing the lava game.
Being so care free and laid back.
The time when life was full of color and wonder.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Day 1

This is me. :D

I went to India and it has become been a part of me...

I am a world traveller :D
(Korea, Singapore, India, West Coast of USA)

I'm still trying to figure out who I am
so I try to figure it out.

But for the most part I am a happy
positive person and love life :D

30 DAYS!

I'm such a follower to these things... but who cares, it seems like fun!!
dont have alot of time to write but I just got back from India... Will explain later ;)

day 01 – introduce yourself with pictures and words
day 02 – your first love

day 03 – your parents

day 04 – what you ate today 

day 05 – your definition of love

day 06 – your day
day 07 – your best friend

day 08 – a moment

day 09 – your beliefs
day 10 – what you wore today 

day 11 – your siblings

day 12 – what’s in your bag

day 13 – this week
day 14 – what you wore today
day 15 – your dreams
day 16 – your first kiss
day 17 – your favorite memory

day 18 – your favorite birthday
day 19 – something you regret

day 20 – this month

day 21 – another moment

day 22 – something that upsets you
day 23 – something that makes you feel better

day 24 – something that makes you cry
day 25 – a first
day 26 – your fears
day 27 – your favorite place

day 28 – something that you miss

day 29 – your aspirations

day 30 – one last moment

Sunday, April 3, 2011


"Action is the foundational key to all success."
-Pablo Picasso

For almost a year now I have been planning to go to India. I was imagining myself

getting off of the plane and seeing the beauty India has to offer.

I would see myself working with the children, helping them, teaching them, learning from them...

All we had to do to recieve this dream was to earn $3,500 before the deadline.

It's funny... At first the money was the last thing on my mind. It was India! India! I get to travel around the world!

Selfish I know. But meeting after meeting my views started changing.

I had to start asking myself what is the real meaning of this trip? I needed to ask myself that question every day.

Those kids needed us. All of us. This is not a vacation. And I was so close to not making it...

However I could not give up. If I gave up I would be letting the kids down. I'd be letting myself down.

But guess what. I made it. $3,500 dollars cash all in.

No way could I have just done that by day dreaming all year about it. I had to take action. I had to work for it.

It really was a life lesson. Like the quote above. Action is the key to success.

You can't break down walls by just staring. You have to take action. You have to work for it.

And let me tell you the feeling is great! Nothing in the world feels greater then defeating those Goliaths.

Now i'm not saying that you shouldn't day dream. Becuase without that dream their would be no reason.

So dream big, and make it come alive.

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."
Lao Tzu


Saturday, April 2, 2011

Exclamation points

So I realized whenever I use these --> !!! They look like the letter L...

Makes me sad... I should fix it but i'm lazy. Very Lazy. Also My last

poast said the places i'll/you'll go way to much.. sorry to burden you 

with those words. I also realized I spelled "post" wrong in this poast.

But once agian. Laziness. If you ask any of my good friends they will

most likely say i'm a lazy person... True but lets just skip the part of

you agree..ing? (<-- Agreeing? is that right?) with me... Cuz I know 

its true and telling me would only bring me down. I'm a sensitive child

as well.. ish... I also write alot. Alot of boring stuff.. If you have read 

this far i'm proud of you! Gold star sticker on your forehead for you!
 Your probably a loser like he is for reading this much. Nah I kid,
 your not a !oser.

haha I used an exclamation point for the loser word instead of an "L"!(<-- that is an exclamation point) Tricked you huh!

It really looks like an "L"(Eye-I, ELL-l, Exlamation point-!)... Point proven... So yeah I have alot to say today if you couldn't tell.

I really do give you props for reading my simple yet boring life as a child.

Anyways back to that picture. He looks like he is going to try and pop a zit does he not?

It's already a turn off that he has nerdy glasses (you get what I mean i'm not checking him out) but to add the fingers pinching in on eachother?

why couldn't he just use one finger? Was two really neccesary?

Gosh darn this stupid blog. I can't spell anything. I'm sure I spelled neccesary wrong.

Anyways. Your probably getting bored and want another prize for reading this far...

Here you go you selfish jerk... (always has to have something in it for you)

Happy now? You got a little girl giving you a big prize.


Oh, The Places I'LL Go!!!

The Places I'll Go

Its crazy how close I am to heading off to India! 6 more days and i'm off!!

Sadly i'm still 50 dollars short of my trip but hopefully I can earn that money before the end of today.

Not only is India coming up, but graduation is right around the corner!

Its sad to think of all the seniors going our seperate ways finding our passion in life.

What is even sadder (<-- is that even a word?) is that I just ended off on a bad note with some friends.

Its stupid. I would like to fix it but i'm not one to confront my problems :P

I'm excited for this trip to India. It's a new expierence, a new perspective, a new attribute that will follow me throughout my life. I'm glad my mom got me involved. It really is an amazing feel.

You know as a kid I had such a crazy imagination.

 I always thought different countries would look way different from where I lived. 

Such as one country being black and white, another country everything is 2x smaller, and maybe one has people with peanut butter lips! 

As we get older we tend to lose our imagination and its really sad :(

Imagination is key to everything and anything to your future! With imagination you can make what you see possible!

Grr... I dont know where i'm going with this conversation all I know is I get it and I can't put it in words!!!

Blogging is not my thing   yet... ;) I will blog often and sooner or later I will become a great creative writer and will be very proud of my blog.

But yeah to end on a boring, awkward, and slightly uncomfortable feeling...

That was me trying to put my shirt on this morning...


Tuesday, March 22, 2011


S-o I decided that i'm just going to be honest.
C-alling people names and putting them down is getting old.
R-eally this is out Senior year and never have we been so immature.
E-verything is testing us, so keep focused on you not others.
W-e need to stop missing our past and start moving on.

I-, will always keep positive and say nice things to others for the rest of the year.
T-hat is my goal, and I will achieve it.

Monday, March 21, 2011


Its amazing how something so ridiculous can be so amusing. My friend bought A $20 LOLLIPOP.

Yes!!! $20 dollars down the drain for the lollipop you see above this text. Who would ever buy such a thing?

I'm sure I could just buy a regular lollipop myself and bedazzel it myself all for the price of 5 dollars AT MOST!!!

*Psh* Cody you have no idea what your talking about that lollipop is so cool!

NO!!! I know exactly what i'm talking about you! Really that is probably why they called them suckers in the first place!

Lets make a candy that is bedazzeled and sell it for 20 bucks! ... Yay! I want one mommy! Okay kiddo here you go!

The clerk "...*psh what a sucker*" The mom "I know right! And they are only for 20 dollars!"

Seriously that is how the name started. I decided that is how it goes.

Sorry to pop your bubble but your getting scammed.

But hey if your loaded with money and dont want to spend it on anything other then bedazzled suckers go ahead I wont stop you :)

P.S. This blog will become more of my thoughts and less of random crap now :) sorry about the pink it is now changing to white :D

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


I love randomness. It brings imagination into our lives. Just look at this picture!
Who thinks of such a random thing? Its amazing what our power of imagination can do.
Without imagination we wouldn't have anything. We wouldn't have a computer,
no cell phones, no iPods, etc. Imagination is key. You have the power to
create a life to enjoy! Your imagination is what is what decides how your life will turn out.
You make those decisions. Haven't you noticed your whole day gets ruined when you stub your toe in the morning? But seems to go great when you wake up happy? Seems as if your imagining
your whole day before it happens in the morning, and whatever you 
imagine your day to be it turns out to be that way right?  

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Productive Days

Isn't it great when you have a whole day to yourself and so you decide to be productive with it?
Well today was one of those days and It was a very productive day! 
I was able to wake up and get ready so I could take me and a few friends to Cafe Rio,
Then I went to my friends house to make cookies but instead we just ended up messing up her room haha,
Then I drove to school and watched Dance 3 rehearse and it was AMAZING!,
After all that I picked my sister up from school and took her to build-a-bear (she owes a bear to court)
Then I got on the computer and updated everything like my blog ;D it was great.
Productive Days...

Friday, February 25, 2011

My Favorite Food

Ever since I have started working at a Chinese Restraunt
I have ordered this same dish every night for dinner after my
shift. My work will always as me, are you sure you don't
want to mix it up? Maybe try Beef lo mein? Shrimp lo mein?
Pork lo mein? Every answer to that question is always NO!

The tast of Chicken Lo Mein savors my mouth
just right :) Nothing can compare to those noodles, tender
chicken, and veggies that melt in your mouth! I crave the
sight of it everytime I see it...
(Unless I just ate some already and filled myself full)

I just wanted to share how much I LOVE chicken lo mein!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The Gift

Life... Its truly one of the greatest gifts for any individual could have. With that gift one can choose how to use it. This power can enable you to do anything. There is no "I can't" with this gift. Life hands you many gifts that can provide you with the power to do anything. So take advantage of it. Live your life the way you want. You don't follow life, life follows you. You make the decision of what paths you plan on taking. Those paths lead you to destinations you chose to go. The main point of this was just to tell anyone and everyone that reads this that you have the power. You can do anything you put your mind to. Nothing can stop you from living the dream. Just give it a try whatever you want to be, do, or have you can recieve as long as you trust and have faith you can.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


Blog sounds like an evil monster that attacks you when you sleep. I just started this new blog and so far this blog is being an evil monster that is being difficult. However I will master this evil blog one day, and then I will be the one in control.