The First Step... Agian.

Begin.

The beginning. Ugh I dread coming to this page, having to type. 

You know I always have wanted a blog, something for me to just write anything down, anything I want.

Yet every time I get to this spot I have high expectations of me.

I want to write something Motivating and Inspirational. 

I want to help myself learn and help others as well. 

But yet once I hit this page the "Create New Post" page, I lose all confidence in myself.

So I decided, NO MORE! I don't care if I don't like it. 

I actually came close to deleting everything before this post.

I thought I sounded like a person who can't work a blog. 

But NO! I will keep writing no matter how silly I sound. I can only get better right? 

The Motivation

So what brought me to writing this right now? 

Well I can tell you it has nothing to do with what I just said at the beginning. 

It goes like this...

Well before I get to ahead of myself, 

I really just wanted to write out my feelings to see if it'd help.

Something about letting out of my thoughts onto paper (or this post I guess)

helps me better understand them and myself.

But anyways, I seem to lose control of my actions at times.

I guess i'm still in need of learning about the consequences in the end. 

I do a lot of things without thinking. 

Now I can't imagine how I could ever get someone angry

because that has never been my intention from the start.

But at times I seem to bother people because I let myself go to far.

So I keep pondering the question "Well, What do I do now?" 

I feel awkward when I have done someone wrong, or angered them in any way.

I actually try to keep away from that person as far as possible.

So I wrote this down hoping i'd get an answer of what I should do.

Because I feel if I confront the person, that I've done wrong, that I will only make it worse.

and if I ignore it for to long I will lose respect. 

End.

I only hope that one day I read this and laugh, 

Laugh at how silly I was for thinking about this. 

Hopefully I can put my embarrassing thoughts of this blog to rest. 

That I will continue until I get better.

I hope I read this sometime in the future and know that I will

write a lot better then I have for this post. 

The End.